Sunday, 30 May 2010

Thursday, 25 February 2010

  • Currently
    Back to Then
    By Darius Rucker
    Ten Years
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    My 1-10

    Taking a page from someone's book.  Thanks Y.C.

    1.  I cannot bare to see you with someone else.
    2. Wishing you were mine.
    3. I'm no longer in love with you.
    4. I disappoint you.
    5. Things are not a rosy as the appear.
    6. Kiss me, want me, love me.
    7. Is she better than me?
    8. You look dirty.
    9. You are my biggest mistake to date (present).
    10. Behind the smiles, laughter & jokes I just want to break down and cry. I just want to wash away the years of disappointment and pain.
    I don't know, things are going to be alright.  I just close my eyes at night, wake up in the morning and everything is alright. God answers my prayers while I sleep. Those answers allows me to roll out of bed, get my game face on and roll with the punches life deals me.

Friday, 13 November 2009

  • I feel content. I have no wants or needs at this moment.

    I've come to terms with my life, I'll just have to live it.

    It feels good to feel good.

    Svannah's got her first dental appointment coming soon.

    Alyssa is as cute as she wants to be. Adorable.

    ***Random*** Rose's birthday is coming up, we shall party at some club. About a weekend ago or so, we went to a club, let me tell you I've never felt so tired and old when I woke up the next morning. There was no alcohol involved, I just drank water and danced. I stayed out way way past my bed time. But the feeling of being drained when I woke up was killer. Either I need to get out more often or keep my behind at home. I am not one of these young club goers, it's just not in me.

    Currently watching an ABC's video with Svannah. She is way into her education. I love it!

    SACRAFIC! (Chloe's Christening)

     

Tuesday, 06 October 2009

  • Currently
    Sex Love & Pain
    By Tank
    Heartbreaker
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    Thanks for nothing...

    The last person I would ever expect to make me feel like sh*t, pretty much just did that.   It's bad enough I feel bad about the mistakes I've made in life, for you to add onto my pile is bs.  What am I to do with this thing I call my life, it's in shambles. Well, I guess it's what I get I dug that hole for myself with no ones help. Now it is up to me to climb out, while others pile the dirt back in it, when I haven't gotten a chance to redeem myself.

    I forgot to be a lover.

    Why do I care so much about what other think about me? Maybe I'm making a mountain out of a mole hill, or I'm reacting exactly as I am suppose to. The main lesson I've learned fro mthis situation is that no more "panty droppin' time" (The Game)..lls

    Right in the middle of feeling like manure, I here these song lyrics.  No help!

     

    Babygirl, tell me how again i'm supposed to trust you now
    After everything you admitted to me
    And I'm sitting here tryna find a way to forget somehow
    Cuz I'm feeling like you cut me too deep
    Girl I blame myself cuz I told you ; lay it on the line
    Never thought that you would lay it that way
    Never thought you had so much to say
    Never thought that I'd see the day
    Where we almost cross the line between love and hate

    GN I feel sick to my stomach. Literally!

Thursday, 27 August 2009